Snap Out of It!

The past three months have been a whirlwind of activity. Getting used to all of the changes in my life has been exciting, scary and overwhelming. Very overwhelming.

I’ve been so stressed over the stupidest things. I’m actually mad at myself for letting bureaucrats interfere with my life! I’m furious that I’ve allowed ignorant people to steal hours of happiness from my days. The pathetic thing is that I know better. I tell myself that God is in control and that everything will work out for my good. And the strange thing is that I actually, truly believe it. So I really can’t put my finger on what’s really bothering me.

It’s almost mysterious. I have a hard time letting people get away with treating me badly. I also have difficulty sitting back and watching when all is not in order. My husband is telling me to step back, pray and wait. The part I’m not doing is stepping back. I think I need to be slapped right now.

What I’m thankful for is that I know confidently that the God of all peace, my peace is still in charge. He does not need my help, even when I insist that He does. I also know that, as my dad would say, this too shall pass. So while I practice stepping back and trusting Him through this, pray for me. Don’t just say it, do it. Pray fervently, and mean it. I’d do it for you.