Moving in a Positive Direction

On Thursday I had an appointment. It was what should have been my first real appointment of the pregnancy. I was to meet the midwife and learn about labor and delivery at the hospital. Instead, I was scheduled for another ultrasound to make sure that there was nothing left of my baby. Let’s just say that Thursday was not a good day for me.

The good news is, everything is pretty much gone. The bad news is, everything is pretty much gone. It does not look like I will need a D&C. An answered prayer. But now, I’m not pregnant any more, and I want to be. I’ve been doing okay. The physical pain has ceased, although emotional damage has been done. I am doing my best… I should say, WE are doing our best to move forward one day at a time. Some days I laugh, some days, I cry. At times, it’s a little of both. For now, that’s the best I can do. But, I will not despair. I have much to be thankful for, and I try to focus on those things right now.