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Drop Out?

March 29, 2011 /

Most of you know that I’ve been a super busy student for the last few months, thus the decreased blogging. I am proud to report that I have not yet dropped out of school in spite of the excessive homework. This is probably the most difficult time I’ve had balancing my family. Work had set hours, so their was no interference with that time.

However, taking courses on line and taking care of my family have been quite challenging roles. For one, my littlest munchkin likes to press the power button as I’m pressing send on the screen. She is also fond of sitting on the keyboard while I’m typing papers. If that doesn’t work, she just closes the laptop on my hands. Hmmm…
At times, I wonder if I am doing the right thing. “God, is this really what you want me to be doing at this stage of my life?” Then I realize that children have to learn that every hour of every day can not be dedicated to their every whim. There is nothing in the mommy handbook that says it should be. As long as I am taking care of their needs, and maybe a few wants, I have to let myself off the hook.
I am learning to invest in myself a little. I am working on not feeling guilty about it. I have learned that it is alright not to have a perfectly tidy home if it means I get to play with the kids when my homework is through. And so, for now, I will press toward the mark and persevere. Now if I can just decide what I want to be when I grow up…

2 Comments

  • Rachel

    April 1, 2011 at 4:07 pm

    Wow. Beautiful blog. I too went to school online to receive my bachelor of science. As a single mother of three at the time, caravaning children to soccor, cheer camp, gymnastics, and swimming, I must say it can be quite challenging! It took me nearly three years on top of my previous college education to get the job done but the result was beautiful! You are right in keeping a fair balance between being a mother and a woman. God has designed us with the most amazing properties one of which is a sense of value. I find so much value in enriching my life through education. Never feel guilty for being all that you can be, as a mother of an 18 year old now, I can assure you not only are your children watching what you are doing; they will also be mimicking some of the good stuff you taught them along the way. Going to school was tough, and I put long, hard days in especially as a salaried healthcare marketer most of the way through, but I made it by and through the grace of God and am certainly a better person for it. You are the best! Keep your head up, and when times get tough remember someone has gone all the way through and come out successfully, so I assure you, you can too 🙂 Rachel B.